March 29, 2008

Pindahan ah

Ok, I don't realize that I have another blog, the one on Friendster. I'll just copy-paste the entries.

Entry from Saturday, March 29th 2008

What’s wrong with being Homer?

I was browsing through a handbag forum yesterday and stumbled upon a thread ‘how do you afford your bags’. There’s this one american lady replying ," Prostituting, organ selling, human trafficking.". Of course if was meant to be a joke and people are laughing at her reply. Then there’s a russian girl replying angrily, " How can you guys joke about those things. You are all so uneducated.". And they started bickering.

A : " Hello! Harvard grad here!"

(well, these ladies actually have those high-end jobs, doctors, lawyers, paralegals,etc,so I won’t exactly call them uneducated :D)

After a long heated arguments, it turned out that this russian lady’s neighbor had to sell her kidney to feed her children and pay off debts.

A : " It’s a joke. Stop taking it so seriously and you’re in a HANDBAG forum where we are allowed to be shallow."

R : " Are you all going to laugh if I make jokes about WTC, obesity, or Bush’s policy on Iraq?"

– Silence –

At this point I started to laugh with irony. It’s so obvious that people can only laugh about issues we don’t have to deal with, and when faced with our own issues, we get touchy and judgmental like the second lady accusing the first lady of being uneducated and the first one who can’t laugh about her own issues. But can we really laugh at our own ’scars’? Should we try?

Things are always better said than done. Someone told me yesterday that I am materialistic and that I ask my boyfriends to buy me expensive things. I was kinda pissed off. For the information, I don’t have any sugar daddy (though I really wish I had one, LOL). I do own those bags, shoes, etc, but I bought them with my own hard-earned money. (*cough-and parent’s-cough*) and never asked my dates or boyfriends to buy me those.

According to Merriam Webster dic, materialistic : a preoccupation with or stress upon material rather than intellectual or spiritual things.

Speaking of materialistic, I love my little ‘worldly possession’ but I also do care about global warming, and other things going around me. I always try to save energy, I seldom watch TV, turn off all the electronic devices, I turn off the water tap when brushing my teeth, etc. You can say I’m stingy, but I really try to cut my CO2 emission.

I was thinking why I got angry about this subject, is it maybe because deep down I’m ashamed of my extravagant way of life, or ashamed of those shallow people out there (which is being represented so well by me), or is it because people judge me wrongly though I have to admit there’s no smoke without fire?

After some thinking (don’t get me wrong. It doesn’t take me long to do some thinkings, since I only have the brain capacity of Homer *Simpson! not the Iliad-greek-poet* and the concentration capability of a poodle.) Hey, no offense to all the poodle-lovers out there. I realize I was angry because I think too highly of myself and I can’t accept that other people don’t think so too. And now I try to accept the fact that I’m not that cool and smile at the comment with ease and (still) irony.

Apropos Homer, I took a how-stupid-are-you test yesterday. And yes, I am as slow (or stupid, in other word) as Homer Simpson! I don’t know whether I have to laugh or grimace. But since grimacing is said to be accelerating the aging and wrinkling process, and I’m not that smart as well, I think I should laugh at my own stupidity, shouldn’t I? What’s wrong with being Homer anyway? He maybe is slow but at least he has a good heart. (eh, does he?).

November 24, 2007

Pindahan ah #3

I was shallowly devastated because I couldn't go to Egypt on holiday :)

Bye bye Egypt

Ok, before you start protesting, I know this is too much, 3 entries in one night. But I am just totally inspired right now. Maybe ‘inspired’ isn’t the right word, maybe it’s more like ‘releasing the need to blabber’ (is that the right term?) after the 3-year-writing-vacancy, and I’ve never kept any journal either.

My Egypt trip is officially canceled. *sobs*

I was planning to go to Cairo with a friend for the Christmas holiday… am really looking forward to it. But I’ve just recently realized that I have to extend my visa in December, and the process will take about 2 weeks approximately. I couldn’t book the ticket, because I wouldn’t know when exactly I’ll get my passport back. Yes, they will take away my passport. And after I get back my passport I can’t go either, since the plane tickets price will be soaring high. I think the big guys from those airplane companies can buy a new car every Christmas!

And the friend, who’s supposed to travel with me to Egypt, goes to Paris instead! And same old story, I can’t go, I won’t have any passport….

poor me poor me… *self pity mode on*

So, I guess I’ll have convince myself to face the fact that I’ll be spending the holiday in Berlin (just like every other years)..

*for P.S : if you read this, don’t forget that you still owe me an Egypt trip!

Pindahan ah #2

I wrote this for my dear friend or cousin who hated her job back then.

For my dear friend, the SQ girl :)

Be brave, little girl
for courage is what counts
I know it’s tiring to put on a fake smile
and that you feel like you can’t carry on.
But time flies, little girl
And when it’s all over,
you’ll look back and smile at the memories
and the tears you now shed.
I can’t hold your hand,
but I’m all ear for you.
That I can promise.
Be strong, little girl
for your friend will always be here for you.

February 3, 2005

Perfection ?

I once watched a beauty pageant show on telly. The moderator said this in a press conference : "We are looking for a woman, who has a perfect face and body, perfect beauty." This sentence made me think, what is perfection actually ?

According to the pageant's moderators, a perfect woman is the one who has blonde hair, long legs, big boobs. And ironically, almost everyone has the same perception of perfection in term of a woman's beauty. We, modern people, claiming to possess freedom of our own mind, are in fact being brain-washed by the images of beauty magazines. When you come to think about it, are those women who don't have blonde hair, etc IMperfect ?

Perfect :
1. Lacking nothing essential to the whole ; complete in its nature or kind
2. Being without defect or blemish

The word 'perfect' itself has different meaning to each individual person.
To art-lovers, perfect might be a Picasso's abstract painting (which , for me personally, is not perfect at any rate, since I can't understand what's behind those blunt colours).
To a mother, perfect is her ear-piercing loud, crying baby (Yikes ! I hate crying babies!)

See ? Perfection is only about our own different perception, point of view, background, favor, etc. So, who are they, we, dare to categorize what or who is perfect and who isn't, based only on our own subjective ignorance ?

----- me ain't perfect -----

February 2, 2005

Power of Woman

Man is the head of a house, but woman is the neck. She can turn the head whichever way she wants .............
(Taken from My Big Fat Greek Wedding)

--- can't agree more --- :)